I'm so tired, and so overworked right now. But it's midnight, I'm reading poetry, and it's quiet. Tonight I drove back from Saugerties, my first visit to my love's new home, which is beautiful and fills me with warm, scary (good scary!) feelings. I'm sleepy, and I have so much work, but also, this is what I am meant to do, to sit and read and sip ( Read more... )

A friend of mine (with three grown kids of his own) once told me to never have kids unless you have a burning desire to have kids. And then it will be more worth it than anything else. Well, I now have a burning desire to have kids (OK, kid -- let's start singular) and so I think I want to have kids but I am feeling many feelings about it. More on ( Read more... )

I'm just thinking about this right now, although I'm multi-tasking between this and typing up notes for my book review due Monday ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving ( Read more... )

I had a nice day today with Bob that I just wanted to document! It was a very legit roommate hang, and it's good to get to know him. We'd made plans last night to go to the DMV in Bridgeport to get his license renewed and transferred to CT, which he's been trying to do for a while (but getting there without a car is inconvenient, and the 2 times he ( Read more... )

Waiting for the train to go into the city to talk to JWB about my comps list. Nervous for all the usual reasons, but also excited to get this thing off the ground. I still have to meet with Andrew and Suzanne. I'll email them today, and do some of my research for Tom's paper, and start the book for my review, and think about the CFP I found this ( Read more... )

I'm not sure how I'm going to sleep tonight. I feel so unsafe. I feel like everything I thought I could know was wrenched from under me. I feel helpless and hurt and so raw. I don't know how this could have happened, how this was possible, how people could be this ruthless and thoughtless ( Read more... )

A lot is happening but it's all happening at different paces ( Read more... )

My goals for November -- to watch Noirvember movies, to run a mile everyday I'm home, and to say No to as many events as possible in order to focus on my research -- are only going OK ( Read more... )

Weird day today ( Read more... )