i dont even know what to write. i am blank. i am hurting so badly. i feel so alone and fucking dead inside at this point....and the one person that can fix that is absent at the moment. (not your fault...so dont feel bad baby ( Read more... )

i am having an AMAZING day so far. wanna know why???? because i am IN LOVE with my amazing boyfriend!!! i cant stop thinking about him....he is all that matters. :)

omg i just remembered the funniest thing that i forgot to put in the last entry....it might be one of those "ya had to be there things," but im gonna tell you anyway ( Read more... )

blah im soo fucking tired! im sitting here in the library because i have a class at ten...and theres a coffee shop downstairs....well ive discovered that they make really shitty coffee....the first thing i had there a couple weeks ago tasted a lil funny....and today i was desperate so i got a cappucino....BLECH it was the most bitter and disgusting ( Read more... )

well this weekend was awesome ( Read more... )

i am so disappointed in myself right now. i wasn't there when he needed me...i let him down. i cant believe myself. i mean, i should have detected something in his voice or something, i should have known somehow...god i just feel so horrible ( Read more... )

hmm whats new with me...well so far things are great! this past weekend i visited matt. we have so much fun together, god. i mean, we will just laugh about the dumbest things and be so goofy in front of each other. and other times he just makes me melt with all the sweet romantic things he says to me. i swear, he is my match. he is perfect for me. ( Read more... )

yes, yes, fun things are afoot. im so excited to see my hammy this weekend, and this time im actually LEAVING to go see HIM!!! woohoo that means i get to get out of the apartment for awhile!! :):) but ne way, hes so good to me. god i mean like ill be freakin out about something, and he knows exactly what to say or do to calm me down and help me ( Read more... )

god things are great! im so loving the way my life is going right now. im head over heels in love, im a lead in a play as a fucking freshman (woohoo!), me and my sis are doing better, im getting pretty good grades, etc....man god is blessing me so immensely...im so lucky ( Read more... )

lets just say that everything good cant be all good now can it....

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