well i knew from the start college would be hard, more work, more time management, more...everything....just more than high school....and im doing fine with the work, time management needs a lil work, but im doin good. its just....well i dont know if its the fact that im nervous about all these auditions, or if its often having to sadly say goodbye ( Read more... )

ok...i seriously dont have blood in my veins anymore...its pure extacy pulsing through my entire body...i am just so happy. happier than i have been in so long. i just feel like nothing could go wrong, and if something does, i have matt to help me through anything and everything. hes so perfect. in every way, shape, and form. in every word he says ( Read more... )

holy shit im a college student! holy fucking shit. i cant believe it ( Read more... )

so i havent written in awhile because i have been freakin busy. well i have just been having a blast of a summer! me and matt are official now, with titles. weve been hanging out almost every day, and he is so awesome. we have so much in common, and so much to talk about. no matter what were doing, we always have so much fun together, were ( Read more... )

i feel like such a selfish bitch. but at the same time i need to be selfish. i cant help it. i need to be free for awhile. i need to figure out what is right for me. and that would be fine if it didnt affect anyone besides me. i am the kind of person that wants to make others happy before myself. my worst nightmare in life is hurting ones that i ( Read more... )

yes. yes. you read correctly. i am officially the lead singer of a band! its called for of 1 things, and i am so psyched! i mean, god, im so flattered that they would ask ME to do something like this.i just cant wait to get into the swing of things. woohoo ( Read more... )

yesterday was good. it took my mind off everything that was, well, on my mind. after work i drove out to new baltimore to hang out with a group of friends. (mike, derek, matt, terri-lynn, and amber) they are so awesome, cuz theyre fucking hilarious and just carefree about everything. only bad thing was that mike kept farting on me....ew. oh well, ( Read more... )

ok quick update. brian and i broke up. my choice. i just need to breathe for awhile. i need to figure out what i want. in general. i guess i just need to breathe after 2 1/2 years. plus our relationship had become distant and way too physical. yeah maybe that could have been fixed, but it still doesnt help with how i feel. i feel how i feel. no one ( Read more... )

so sometimes i wonder why i feel a certain way. even though i have no reason to feel that way. sometimes i want to understand why i feel happy, sad, confused, mad, or whatever. it shouldnt be that hard, should it? well im a twistedly emotional-follow-the-heart kinda person, and sometimes i dont even know where im pointing myself. oh well. gives ( Read more... )

well. a lot of things have happened since i wrote last. right now i am up at cmu for spring break to hang with my sisters. its been fun so far. ive met lots of people and been to some of their classes. i even tried SUSHI! (by the way i hated it and ended up spitting it in a napkin ( Read more... )