i can't really say why, but i've been really down lately. i mean, there's alot going on in my life, but it's all getting to me. my job, my relationship, living with my parents, and trying to be a good mom. i feel like i'm about to have a breakdown. and it's causing problems in all areas too. it's hard for me to function right now because there's ( Read more... )

so we're all out of the apartment now, and i'm living with my parents again. G-A-Y!! heidi and tara live in a tent, jeremy lives ( Read more... )

so me and jay broke up...for good. as of nov. 1, 2005. now i'm engaged to a great guy, but i don't know when the wedding will be. i'm still stuck at mcdonlds, but i've been promoted to management and i'm makin $9.50/hr. which isn't too shabby. it'll get me by until i go to college. life has been pretty damn fun since kickin jay to the curb. it's me ( Read more... )

blah blah blah

god, i wish so much that i could just leave jay. it's just so complicated right now. and there's a few people i've been thinking about lately...and flirting with, and i can't act on it. i've almost been tempted to cheat on jay because i can't leave him, and he's such an asshole to me, but it's just so wrong, and it hurts so bad. i was gonna write ( Read more... )

well, i finally got my "visitor" so i'm not pregnant. in a way, i'm relieved. but in a bigger way, i'm very bummed. I KNOW it's too soon for another one, and we're not finacially stable, or in any way stable...blah blah blah...but god it almost doesn't matter. i was so excited at the thought of another baby growing inside of me. and if the next one ( Read more... )

i think that i may be pregnant again...god i hope not.

so me and jay broke up today....AGAIN!! but i am so relieved. i've been wanting this for a while, but didn't know how to tell him. it was the same old shit tho. we fought over who the baby was going with, couldn't come to an agreement, the police were called...blah blah blah. same as always. i need to get on with my life whether its alone or with ( Read more... )

well alot has happened since i last updated. me and tara stopped talking as i'm sure everyone already knows. but we made up. we did NOT kiss and make up. we just made up. lol. daniel had an entire week off of work, and i missed seeing him, but it went by pretty fast. and since he's been back i've seen him like once. it was weird tho...i don't know ( Read more... )

i broke up with jay last night...finally. that was a huge freakin ordeal, but now it's over, and we're working out a schedule for each of us to see the baby equally. i'm so relieved it's over, and it feels so good to be single. i guess people at mcd's (don) were telling him that i've been cheating on him and that he should put me in check and all ( Read more... )