You'd think that after a long absence from Hong Kong and not seeing my mom for five years would make me pounce at the chance of staying here for longer that a month. But after being here for a week I have come to realize that my mom and I can only have an functional relationship over the receiver, which I also have the option of hanging up at any ( Read more... )

i called and old friend tonight and we finally buried the hatchet. as weird as it was, it felt good to finally talk to one of the links of my past. its been such a long time that we've become completely different people, and for once it's actually felt reassuring that i'm not the only person that's grown up and carved out a character of my own.

I don't have any fluid thoughts right now, but I felt the need to update my livejournal. Let's see...hummm...Liz Phair is playing in the background, along with Yeahyeahyeahs (can't decide on who to listen to, so Liz is blaring on the computer, and Yeahyeahyeahs from the stereo - a little case of ADD coming on ( Read more... )

I honestly have to laugh at the life I'm living in right now. I am the girl that forces a discount card on you at AE. I laugh at myself when I actually listen to the conversation I'm supposed to have with every single person that steps into the store ( Read more... )

if i kill myself tonight what will i miss in the morning......hmmmm...a boyfriend that loves me, but doesn't love me enough to drive me to the hospital....a reflection in the mirror that i disgusts me....and a life that i hate. lets see what i have to look forward to tomorrow morning.........................................

Could I be someone else for an hour? Even just a minute. Someone not as broken, not as lost, someone else other than me.

i wonder what life would be like outside of my head. outside of the tainted views i have about people and life. there's this weird jaded reality that consumes every thought. how great would it be if everyone could be trusted, could be depended on, could be your anything and everything ( Read more... )

it's been a long long tims since i updated. a lot has changed. don't even know where to start. things happen for a reason and you just have to roll with it.

i don't know how i get dragged to a friggen keg "get together". i don't fit in, i don't buy into the corporate america ideology therefore, i stick out like a sore thumb.

Again I am calling a person that is never home. This is ridiculous. Not calling anymore, waste of my fucken time.