Random ramblings ( Read more... )

Well, if it's love.. make it hurt.

fuck it.
i cant believe i even thought it would work.
fuck you.
i cant believe i let myself be one of those girls that beats myself up over a stupid fucking guy.

Ooooook I'm done being a psycho ( Read more... )

Im absolutely tired of being an emotional mess ( Read more... )

Ok, Spencer, I want to not give a shit.
The thing is... its been three days... and I miss him like crazy already.
But I have no clue how he feels. I guess thats kind of the point of taking a break.. was to find out if we would miss one another. But what happens if he doesnt miss me back in the end?? I dont know if I'll be able to handle it..

My goal ( Read more... )

He's not going to give a shit... so I wont either.

I cant handle it anymore..
I thought I could hold it in untill we left..
but I lost it in the car in my driveway tonight.

I'm so emotionally exhausted.

So much is going on all at once and I feel like thats all I can do is cry.
"That's life. If nothing else, its life. It's real, and sometimes it fuckin' hurts, but it's sort of all we have."

Im ready to ( Read more... )

I know exactly when my meltdown will start.

I've been trying to figure it out because its only two weeks untill the move and it hasnt happened yet, besides little cries here and there from a moment of overwhelm-ment......
It will be when we change our relationship statuses.
I feel a little better now that I've figured it out, but extremely sad to ( Read more... )

I'm starting to forget how life was with you.
The way I felt. The way we talked.
How easy it was and how i was so used to being with you...
being with someone new for the last 9 months has definitely been a challenge when you are used to a different person for 4 years...

I wish I could say that I still want us to be together in the end..
because isnt ( Read more... )