i have decided to leave livejournal. i have a new on line journal at xanga.com, my name there is jaded_eyes18 should you care to see what's going on in my life.

ok so i was thinkin...i screwed up. alot of the blame for mine and seans failed realationship goes to me. i know this. i dont want to get back together with sean..i want to keep being his friend and talk to him like we used to be able to do...i miss that. not our realationship because...i never really felt like myself around him..i always felt like ( Read more... )

i just got home from the movies with jo and alex. The Incredibles are pretty cute...i've seen better, but it wasnt bad. i dont know when the next time i'll see alex is...that makes me sad. he's moving sat. to live with his dad..and leaving me behind..again. he doesnt get why that makes me sad, but i just want him with me. despite everything that ( Read more... )

i have surgery tomorrow. it was supposed to be a week from tomorrow. but im so sick they want it to be over with by the end of this week. me too ( Read more... )

oy..spent all night throwing up everything i've ever digested. not fun. dont really know why im so sick lately...maybe it has to do with kidney stones??..i have a dr. appt. for that tomorrow..so no mr. austins class..again. grr...i need to talk to him about this. mr. otis said i could hand in assignments that i didnt do for 1/2 credit..which is ( Read more... )

sigh...i talked to ryan. he's such an awesome kid..he made me laugh. definitly not a conversation for his girlfriend though ( Read more... )

i was gonna try to call sean last night...stacey and sarah wouldnt let me ( Read more... )

..i just broke up with sean...and im actually upset..im tired of fighting with people over it..and defending his actions when i dont really understand them either..i hope i did the right thing..cause right now im not so sure...
alex came home...
homecoming sucked..
travis didnt come up...
i have a 5 mm kidney stone..

...travis isnt coming up ( Read more... )

ok..so alex is gone. he and his mom got into a fight and she came home early from work to check on him and he wasnt there. he took his clothes his games and his t.v and his stuff and left. we think he's in fernindina with dan and sean. he tried to call my phone 2 but meg had it..so i havent been able to talk to him. and im scared..i want him to ( Read more... )