ok so i miss my journal so much. im drunk right now but so what. jame and i are now engaged . i now wowsers on both end pushing awaybut i love with every part of my soul. we dont belong together we should have never met but we did and it like magnets pushing so hard against each other but at the same time give us a lil push and we r together ( Read more... )

So today I am trying to realize whether I have it in me to try and move forward. I've been a waitress for Applebees for 4 years now and don't get me wrong I love it. Its a fun job I get to know new people all the time and normally its pretty good money. But I still feel like something is missing. Like that I can do better. I know I could if I ever ( Read more... )

Ok.. So today was my first day back to work! They put me on a morning shift so I could get usedto everything again. It is like riding a bike! It was slow as shit but I still made 40 bucks so not too bad. I work saturday night and all day sunday monday night and of course tuesday night for karaoke! It shall be fun!! I love working. I felt so lazy ( Read more... )

Well the past few days have been boring as fuck. oh well I guess that is the life of not working. I'm hoping to get my candle/ ebay business i think it will work out good. and James is on a week on week off schedule so that should be good for my boredom. I work tomorrow morning. That will be interesting :) We shall see. I hate not working. It ( Read more... )

Ok so the whole James cheating on me thing is really getting to me at the moment. I just don't quite know how to cope with it yet. I care about him so much but It just eats at me at every moment with her still in our lives. I know having Michael live here that its part of the territory but its just hard to know that she still calls my house and ( Read more... )

Ok so I got a second DUI and have been in jail for like ever. Word from the wise jail is worse then i thought it would be. It is so good to be out. My life is still just as hectic as ever but I'm working on it. I'm going to start selling candles and saling things on ebay. I think itd be fun and something that I will enjoy. But we shall see. I'm ( Read more... )

Ok so nothing new in my life lol. how boring :) maybe if i start writing at night when i get home i might have more to say lol. I miss Darcy horribly. Thats the pain going on in my life. I really love James. Thats the comfort in my life. So its evened out... kinda. missing Darcy is stronger then love. Its cold here. I hate cold weather :( I ( Read more... )

Well me n James went to his cabin this weekend. it was AWESOME! :) made me kinda miss wv.

Last night was a boring monday night... as always. I got a doctors appointment tomorrow morning. lets hope that goes well. I gotta work tonight and im off tomorrow. I hope I make some money. I need to. I can't wait to see Carrie tonight. Its seems like a some shit went down in Myrtle. I miss her and I being closer. I feel like we have a lot of ( Read more... )

Well I didnt get to go to Myrtle with Amanda and Carrie but James and I went to Va beach on friday since i had to work saturday. We went to his grandparents and visited with them for the evening and got ice cream and chocolate milk from Yoder Dairy. mmmm. Then we got dressed and went to Mahi Mah's for dinner. we ate outside so we were beach front ( Read more... )