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bitter2lucy

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Jan 01, 2004 19:41

i just realized that my in-laws have quite an elaborate web site that has a bunch of photos from my wedding on it. if you get so bored you almost want to die, it's at lordclan.com. i'm in a bit of a daze anymore, at first i thought it may be from repeatition, but i'm comfortable where i'm at. i don't know, i feel foggy lately, a big awful ugly ( Read more... )

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artistspin January 2 2004, 04:00:37 UTC

I saw the wedding photo's on the website and you look so happy. Unfortunetly, sometime when people tell you did the right thing, then later on change their minds. It's just double edge sword it can go both ways, but all you want is to the remind what they said in the first place that empowered you to march on, and still feel that you have their support. Not pushed into a corner, and feel the whole world is getting smaller.

bitter2lucy January 2 2004, 12:57:31 UTC

thanks for your thoughts. i think a reason that it's hard for me to decide what to do is that it seems that the two mes are fighting. jaime is weak, pathetic,and an all believeing in people pushover and then the other me, whos bin coming around more lately, doesn't give a shit what anybody thinks, she's stronger, says whatever she thinks and hates jaime. i don't know if that makes much since to anyone but me, but...i don't know, people might not like the lucy side of me, but when i'm her, i don't get hurt.

bitter2lucy January 3 2004, 00:21:42 UTC

hey, sorry about the psycobabbling this morning, i never did get to the point. i kinda just got up, hadn't had my coffee and just went on. i just have two different sides telling me to do different things. hey, that's cool you saw my weddings pictures. my in-laws are super great people and i am very happy to be with brandon. he's an amazing person, i'm very lucky.

artistspin January 4 2004, 21:33:47 UTC

No, No
I totally understand where you are coming from having two side one empowering you and other one in doubt. It's basically that how much anyone feel these days, always have two faces or wear various mask to hide the inner pain trying to release themselves.

I apologize if i am not making sense running under 5 hr a sleep went to see rocky horror picture show last night as columbia.