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[bizkit413]

I keep thinking about calling or writing her and apologizing. Asking if we can still be friends. The thing is, I'm still not really sure what I have to apologize about. I mean, nothing that we fought over was a new thing for us. The only really surprising thing was how much she took offense to, well, me and the way I am. I think we probably

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[pushmepullme]

her points sounds like really good things to bring up in therapy. trust issues, issues of self-worth... these are biggies, and they're HUGE stumbling blocks toward developing sound relationships of all kinds.

and perhaps her point in saying you have malice inside you was more about HOW you deal with your negative emotions, not the fact that you have them. do you employ passive aggression, perhaps?

good luck, trevor. i hope your first session goes well and i also hope you don't contact this gal for a while. give her some space. more importantly, however, give yourself some space. you gotta sort yourself out before you can sort out (change and improve) the relationships in your life.

[pushmepullme]

her points *sound* like really good things to bring up in therapy. argh i hate when i make mistakes.

[bizkit413]

She did say that I get really passive aggressive. So yeah, that's kinda wild that you came up with that.

My first meeting with this therapist chick is tomorrow, I'm still not even sure what's going to happen there. I hope she can help, but everyone says that a good therapist just listens, and if I just wanted to be listened to I could pray, or write in a journal. I'm hoping she'll be able to... help. I pause there because I have no idea what form that help will take, if I did I'd do it for myself.

I'm really uncomfortable with waiting to hear from her though. I hope we're still gonna be friends. I think it'd be easier to give her space if I knew for sure we were still friends. But then, to me, part of being friends is spending time together, which, is, like, the opposite of space.