After missing over 2 weeks of work I finally went and perused some guns at the only gunshop I know; the one out by where Impact used to be. I hate guns, I really do, they all looked, just, bad and wrong in the case. So I _didn't_ buy one. Of course later last night that felt like a monumental mistake, but regardless ( Read more... )

Bullet in the brainpan, squish. Firefly ( Read more... )

Things to look forward to: Conclusion of 2nd coming, Scott Pulgrim 6, Scott Pilgrim movie, New Wheel of Time, WoW Cata, World Cup, New Harry Potter movie ( Read more... )

I feel pathetic and worhtless and lonely. Like, all the time. Well; not so much at work. Days off though. Hate 'em. Spending time alone, trying to kill time, wasting time. Being subpar. Living in memory. Rueing it. Is that spelled right? rueing? Rue. Can you rue? I think yes. Other wise the phrase "you'll rue the day" would have no ( Read more... )

Kinda hit another rough patch here. I was doin alright and then I had a couple of dreams knock me for a loop. They weren't, like, nightmares. Kinda the opposite. Fantasies I suppose. Things that make the waking world that much more dreary ( Read more... )

My head's been all super hot today and I can't seem to do anything to make it feel better. I tried the other side of the pillow, turning off the heat in the apt. opening windows and taking a shower. All that happened is that the rest of my body got cold, but not my head. It sucks ( Read more... )

New word: alonely, it means what it sounds like it means. A portmanteau of alone and lonely. As opposed to alonely meaning not lonely as asymetrical means not symetrical ( Read more... )

I grew up hearing the cliches. You can be whatever you want to be. You can do whatever you wanna do, you just have to be willing to pay the price. If you were dying / you had 1 year left on the planet / the world was about to explode, what is the 1 thing you'll wish you had done; why haven't you done it? Just do it ( Read more... )

Because I'm completely unoriginal, and because therapists keep assigning me books to read and draw life lessons from, and because shrewd is as shrewd does, tonight I'm presenting an aziom from a book I read. I think it's an axiom. It might be an adage. I'm looking it up now b/c I'm not really smart enough to know the difference. Upon review it ( Read more... )

The self hatred, and the reluctance to mention it is important in explaining the Spring Concert. I've felt worthless for a long time, and I knew that I had to hide that. People won't like you if you don't give them a reason, and if you wear your heart on your sleeve and show them that you don't even like you, or that there's nothing to like, then ( Read more... )