so the hell known as the mid-term is over now. and because of it i think i might start drinking again. there is nothing like coming home with blood shot eyes and not because of parting and drinking but because from the longest ass day of my life. i just fuckn hate everything right now. maybe it might be best if i do leave i really think nothing the ( Read more... )

well, all i can do is hope and pray for this mid term. @ 5 i will go over my stuff one more time and that is that. i am leaving next friday to go to N.C. for one it is spring break and 2 i have some job interviews to go to. so i am gone. i am not sure if i will finish out the semister up here then move or sit it out for another yr. then get my ( Read more... )

I dont know what will happen tomorrow. It has been over 2 months since I have seen him because of one thing after another. So as for him really coming over or will I hear another blow off line. Who knows just tomorrow is all if he does not come over then i guess it is not meant to be for us to be friends or what not. i just know the hurt has to

This is how I am feeling right now after having a 3 yr. friendship, bed partner, and someone I could reley on and be there for me when ever I needed that person when I was having a bad time. He use to know that I was having a bad day and just call and be like what is going on how can I make it better and now I don't have that. So I think this song ( Read more... )

Why is it seeming like everyone forgets when it comes to making plans with me. That is all that i am hearing as of lately.i am so tired of it so rediculous. why should i even care i should just start forgeting when they want me to do something for them.

All I know is that i hate feeling like this. I texted him to see if he would like to comeover tonight because i could use a friend and nothing as a response. SO i really do believe that he wont be coming over tomorrow night so i can just say thanks for treating me like shit so fuck u. that is all. I just want to fade away because it means that i ( Read more... )

Pretty much it says it all i cant take much more of anything. I dont care to talk or be around anyone anymore. lets just face it the friendship I thought i had with him was a joke to him so he was able to get what he wanted. and as for thursday with him coming over i think that will not happen i called him last night with so really sad news i got ( Read more... )

Well, the BOY told me that he met someone and is seeing how things are playing out. Also, that he is "double booking" himself with friends so out of everyone I am the one who gets blown off out of all of this. So I told him this after I once again was blown off when he was suppose to come over Sunday so now as he said he sees no problem with coming ( Read more... )

So nothing and I MEAN NOTHING is good in my life. I am thinking what the fuck have I gotten into with my one class because it is a 4/520 class that is like the 3 longest fucking hours of my life. I have heard nothing from the boy who I broke down and texted and called with no response. Maybe my call tone "LOSER" is the right one for me because that ( Read more... )

This is a fuckin joke what is so happy about my birthday? the answer is nothing has been good about this week for me at all. the only good thing is that yesterdy my friend threw me a birthday party and it was a great time. but it looks like what i wished for might just not happen for me. it is so sad i must say.