It definatly has been a long time since I have been in live journal. I have been going through alot. Im not sure if i had mention of my step dad having cancer. the sadest day was march 11,2007 when he lost his fight with cancer. now he is in heaven watch over my mom and i. I MISS HIM SO MUCH! some of the people that i thought were there for me ( Read more... )

So as of lately with only having maybe the most one more full year of school left i am really thinking about dropping out because i feel like a total failure and loser because no matter what i do i cant seem to get anything right and those who depend i me i feel like myself i am letting them down.

So this song pretty much sums up how I am feeling ( Read more... )

This is so tiring. I am so sick and tired of hearing people say go on and go out and meet people. It is not as easy as people are saying. I have classes, work and tryin to keep it together for my parents I think i am going to fuckn loose it. Another thing is I feel like I am drowning here trying to get over him but I just want to understand ( Read more... )

As I said before how much more could a person take of getting shit on by bad news. Well, looks like my step-dad now has to battle cancer in his lungs. It is so hard to be dealing with this. The doctors are going to add more types of kemo to what he is getting for the colon cancer to hopefully have the colon and the lung goes into remission. I ( Read more... )

So this is how I am feeling right now. Time has gone by since I have talken to him. I have to admite I did try and to call him today just to say hi. But as usual I got the voice mail. So I just hung up. You think over time it does heal all wounds but I guess for the heart it takes a lot longer for it to heal. And with everthing that was going ( Read more... )

So first I have to say Happy Birthday to Jessie. I hope she has a good one. I am getting ready to do some review for my pls class have an exam on Thursday. But things are ok for now. Filled out paperwork for my new job today I wish I could start sooner then 10/2 but I need the night training because of classes. I hope everyone is doing well and ( Read more... )

well, i got two new tattoos one on each foot. it does help with things i mean it doesnt hurt at all but things have been rough for me lately, and it is hard trying to deal and be there for people when i feel like all i am doing is being kept down and i cant find the light yet. i need to get back to studing for now i will right more later.

So this is what has been goin on. For the one friend she i believe is out to try and ruin all that i have with those i care for. as for the guy we are friends and thats all it will be, and tim and i are talken again but not sure how close we will be again of being friends again. i do believe that everyone does make mistakes and deserves a second ( Read more... )

well, i called the college and they were like we are a day behind the disburstments so by wed the latest you will have it in your account. i got another job offer that might be better then the one i have now. shocking isnt it. maybe the whole change in my life with a certain someone is actually better for me. whatever i may lose from being with ( Read more... )