goddam I'm tired..............

I got caught pinching shit from my dad, now my family's in the other room eating and I know when my sister and grandma leave, I'm going to get fucking killed. I made a pretty big decision. I deleted all the heroin hookup numbers out of my phone, so now I can't get shit even if I want to. I guess I'll finally get straight, but my god, I can't even ( Read more... )

ps, I'm totally completely absolutely fo sho still your friend, so don't think otherwise...........

you've explained, that's cool. I have absolutely no right in the world to be angry or upset, and I'm totally not, you're in love or whatever, that's sweet, but there is one thing though....you're making  an enormous mistake. I'll still be around and waiting when you realize it. and also, I'd really rather not discuss this entry later, this is just ( Read more... )

God damn. I'm not even going to be dramatic about it anymore. I'm just out. Peace.............

what in the fuck am I going to do now?

that last one wasn't even enough. listen, fuck all that angry shit. please, just fucking come back. I'll do anything. I really really mean that. if you have a problem with the heroin still, fuck it, I'll starve to death before I sell so much as one more pack. anything. anything. i have no choice, I cant do this. I absolutely cant. I am just not ( Read more... )

you have no idea what a mistake you're making. it's so fucking ironic, that streets song on the tape I made for you sum up my exact fucking circumstances, but also, I don't know what to say. I just so fucking upset, so fucking indescribably pissed off or sad or I don't even know what. Like every negative feeling rolled into one huge fat chunk of " ( Read more... )

my dad is out of work, my mom cries all the time, I lost my primary source of income, I'm in debt up to my ears, "if I throw a dog a bone I sure as fuck don't wanna hear what it tastes like" I just wanted to hear your voice for a second and see how you liked that tape no one's going to want me around

navigator, navigator, rise up and be strong...the morning is here and there's work to be done.....