So, I need to update ( Read more... )

Wow, have you ever had the feeling of complete and utter hate and disgust for yourself come over you in an instant. All you want to do is act like the priest in The Scarlet Letter, and whip the shit out of yourself. I'd want one of those whips... just to have.
I feel like I care about too much. I feel walked on.

Why is it that people who don't deserve to be happy are the happiest of them all ( Read more... )

So, I'm so much better than this. I need to get in the habit of studying more. My grades aren't what they could be... I need to be more smart about this. I like writing here, because not many people read this, and all that do don't judge, and if they did judge, they don't mean shit to me ( Read more... )

Sometimes I hope he reads this ( Read more... )

Requiem for a Dream will always be one of those movies that will make me cry NO MATTER WHAT.
It's the most real, no bullshit movie I've ever seen, I'd recommend it to anyone.

It hits so close to home.

I could cry for days.
Lame post, I know.

Hmmm... have you ever sat down, looked at a photo... and all these emotions came rushing to you. I looked at a photo of my ex. I felt like he was a stranger... over the 7 or so years I knew him.. he pretty much was. I kick myself everytime I think about it. I should have put an end to it the first time we broke up, we were a badly paired match ( Read more... )

I just realized, I feel really sad and empty ( Read more... )

So, yesterday I suddenly got sick. By sick I mean, dizzy, headache-migrain, sore throat and glands, runny nose, plugged ears... you know, the works. To top it off I was overly sensitive to everything. So I knew that work (4-11 cashier) was gonna suck, but I didn't wanna callin and fuck them over. So I stuck it out.. Until about 9:00 when the ( Read more... )

Well...My cousin left yesterday... for Bellingham, Washington. I spend every day since last Thursday with her, helping her move, saying good-bye. So right before she got into her car, she hugged me, thanked me for allowing us to get so close and for being there. She told me to keep growing and to keep healing. I cried the deepest cry I think I ( Read more... )