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[black_virus]

i was thinking about slitting my wrists again today, but i thought against it because i remembered how stupid it is to do that. someone tell me why this hurts me so much more than it hurts her. why can she go on with her life as if what happened only 2 weeks ago happened 6 months ago. it's simple, i fucked up and i feel so guilty for it and she's

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[anonymous]

I still read. And you honest to god wanna know what I think? I think your better off without her. The girl can be sweet and all, but I saw a big change in you when you started dating her and it wasn't necisarilly for the better. I'm sure she made you happy but.. to put it simple, You were too whipped for your own good whether you saw it or not. You just weren't Kevin anymore.

[black_virus]

that may be true, but i didn't really care if i was whipped or not, i do now however, because i know that it didn't help either of us to be any happier. if we do get back together(if), i hope that we're both grown up enough(honestly me more that her) to realize that neither of us are any happier when one or the other are really whipped. i do think that in order for the relationship to be healthy, both do have to be somewhat "whipped" otherwise both sides are just take take take. and believe it or not, Madalyne took so much more crap from me than she needed to and i love her that much more for it. by the way i would really like to know who this comment was from.

[anonymous]

well i'm glad that you see that. i agree with both people having to be somewhat 'whipped' but it would be more or less not actually being whipped, but that they love each other and dont mind doing things for each other and dont take advantage of the fact that the other person doesn't mind doing things for them. i know i wasn't around you guys all the time, very rarely after the 2 of you actually hooked up for that matter, but when i was around it seemed to me that maddie did nothing but take take take and nothing was ever good enough for her. and i know you are a good person kevin i never wanted to say anything when you two were together because i knew you were happy with her but i honestly think you can do better than that. you can find someone who loves and respects you for who you are and what you believe and not because your just someone whos there to love and spoil her. and about her taking crap from you.. she may have sometimes but i think i know you pretty damn well, or used to anyways.. im sure youve changed some in the past

[black_virus]

Thank you. but, i did give her a lot of bullshit to deal with, because i lied to her a great deal of times and there's nothing more to say about that. I lied to her, and that's what the biggest problem in our relationship was.

[trebleclefpoet]

Alright buddy, i'm sure you already know what I'm going to say, but I'm going to say it anyway. Madalyne is a game. It always has been a game, and probably always will be a game. I love the girl to death, believe it or not, she can be the most fun person in the world to hang out with, and can be as sweet as possible, but everyone in her life has found out that she can be more trouble than she is worth. You deserve alot more than her. Mattie is the kind of girl who will find someone to take care of her, and make her feel special, but if she's not getting the exact kind of attention she wants, she'll flip out. No doubt she acts alot different with you than she does everyone else, including me, but that's who I think she is at her core. Madalyne has ALOT of growing up to do before she can be in a healthy relationship with anyone. If you are serious about wanting her back, give it time. Because without time, it's going to be the same thing that you had before. And by the way, you still have an open invitation to come crash here

[satansleighbels]

heh.. i can understand why u thought it was me. that is wierd..