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[blackcowlips]

Wadddy upppy? I am just sitting here "spinning in luminol" anyways. I am feeling antsy. Damn existential angst. I feel so numb and down-trodden. I was just thinking about the other day, that the way we visually connect with the world is through fleshy orbs. Isn't that weird? And then our brain is also a fleshy orb. And planets are orbs too

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[careendream]

hmm...take a philosophy class?

i used to worry about these things...but somehow taking philosophy kind of killed it for me...probably just because of the overwhelming amount of thought and work that has already been put into figuring everything out and the overwhelming futility of it.

philosophy class

[blackcowlips]

yeah, I have taken two philosophy classes at PJC. (dual-enrolled). I took intro into philosophy and ethics. This weirdness is something I have tried to rationalized ever since I have been afflicted. The problem is that my thoughts trigger emotions, which my thoughts have a hard time untriggering. It can be a vicious cycle. I do these breathing techniques to calm myself, but in doing them only reinforces the fact that I am feeling anxious and then it starts, burning in heart, feeling light and dizzy, vertigo. When you have real symptoms, it is so hard to tell yourself you are not having these symptoms. But thanks for your suggestion, maybe I ought to dust off an old book or two. :)