For those of you who are on the edge of his seat anxiously checking everyday to see if blackcowlips has updated her livejournal, I torment you no more!!! I AM HERE!! lol! Yes, life has been very pleasantly blase. I have been unemployed (not regrettably) and doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! Then why pretell, do I not update more often, well after a ( Read more... )

Allo all! feeling better. It's always so cringe-worthy to look back and see something you wrote in the grips of despair! But I am feeling much better. It turns out the first few weeks you are on zoloft can do that to you. Which makes me feel better knowing that it is not some personal flaw.. :::snickers::: how is everyone doing? I am going to see ( Read more... )

so here i am.  what do i do? is there anything left to say.  well, i guess i am cliche.  that is what i have gathered.  morose little girl.  is there a way to break this cycle.  i really do have promise as a human being.  honestly i can be funny.  but i can be sad too.  i guess this is just one of those times.  i cringe at my self-loathing, it's so ( Read more... )

life just f*cking sucks. you never win. it's always too late or just out of reach. your own worst enemy is yourself and then you allow everyone else to pile on too. i hate people who criticize, i hear enough of that sh*t inside my own head. yeah, like anyone gives a damn.

Bonsoir mon amies! With my joblessness extending seemingly forever into the abyss of the future, I have decided to update my lj.  I was a lot more consistent with my older lj, but unfortunately I am a procrastinating demon.  I am going to be working on my geocites web site, hopefully I'll be able to put most of my pics plus a small movie on there ( Read more... )

Allo, allo. Why do the French say Allo, and it sounds so close to hello, just say hello. I guess it is only me these little things bother. I am going to be a brave little girl and I am going to watch a movie at the movie theaters tonight!! I am going to go see Kill Bill vol. 2. I am really excited/nervous. But I want to see it so bad, I saw ( Read more... )

Wadddy upppy? I am just sitting here "spinning in luminol" anyways. I am feeling antsy. Damn existential angst. I feel so numb and down-trodden. I was just thinking about the other day, that the way we visually connect with the world is through fleshy orbs. Isn't that weird? And then our brain is also a fleshy orb. And planets are orbs too ( Read more... )

what a depressing song! Anyhoots, new to here, friends have finally convinced me that my downward spiral into the realm of insanity be recorded. let me know if this thing is on. Thanks :)