tell me you're not lying to yourself, and i'll try to believe you.
tell me why you can have that and i'm still left with nothing, nothing but pain and the feeling of being alone.
tell me why it's fair that you take that for granted when i've played this game far longer than you ever did and i'm still left empty handed.

trying to re-design this shitty thing. i wanted to go back to one "template" that i used to have, but LJ doesn't support that anymore. sigh. i used to be so into trying to re-write the HTML for this thing.

so i haven't been sleeping well lately ( Read more... )

( soooo loooong )

how come i did fine on my portfolio review, but i still feel like i failed?
i feel like i'm not good enough to be considered a designer.
i'm freaking out for the future.

i hate the art world.

if this is what the real world is going to be like then please, count me out ( Read more... )

i think my body likes to always be sick.
i've had some sort of cold since about january 13th. varying degrees of feeling like shit.

now i'm at the achey, eyes hurt, body's sore, horrible cough stage.
don't forget the ear ache.

ugh.

why can't i just feel better already.
i feel like i have a low grade fever.

i don't want my past when i can go further into my future ( Read more... )

i'm falling.
in love?
out of love?

i don't know.
but i'm falling.

if i was your brick, then why are you holding on to me to stay afloat?