i woke up at 6 got ready went to the testing thing spent a good while figuring out my percentages and such took the eassay theny the freakin typing I completely failed.i'm only at 25 wpm...I need to be at 30.lame.I was so sad and depressed.its not fair.i still have my health and two other jobs.hmm

I realized that i live in a city full of strangers.
I'm sick of seeing couples everywhere.
I need a quick fix.
Big test tomorrow.
If i pass the test
BIG INterveiw
Getting this job determines whether I'll struggle of be good for the next 6 months.Either way I'll be fine but I'd rather be good then struggle but I'm up for the challenge.

I miss him yet life goes on and i just happy that we still think what each of us is doing is good for us.I keep having these dreams that we'll ,meet up again.I can't wait till then i focus on work and getting teh blue cross job and school in the fall.Hmm well i have a 8 hour work day ahead of me..Woot.I'm nervous about the testing on tuesday for ( Read more... )

I love portland.yet i didn't think the struggle was gunna be like this.struggle what i mean is my mother she called at 7 this morning i was already up thanks to the jerk who left his alarm on for an hour.She calls i almost didn't answer.i wish i didn't only good out of it was i got more minutes on my cell (which I'll pay.)so thats nice since ( Read more... )

blah blah blah i need a job yet i feel so lazy eergh.here i go.

So I haven't written in a long time I've been wanting to but anything that has to do with a words or a pen and paper I 've been advoiding.I'm done with high school.I have two days left yet right now I'm skipping my first period dued to ( Read more... )

I can't wait to get out

My mom abondoned her friend at teh store to go gamble.Its sad.I had no Idea Untill the friend called me 12 times saying somthing was wrong.SO I called the hospital the non emergency number police and then my moms friend callls and it my mom who then sounds Pisssed off and says she's coming home. SO my mom's addiction has gotten worst this time she' ( Read more... )

yesturday was one of the better days I woke up at 5 30 am for some reason went for a walk then watched a little tv then cleans my room then Me and the family went to whites we didn't fight which was new.anyways the day was nice I got to finally hang out with Ian.WHich was nice.the whole day was awesome.it wans't untill later that night my mom ( Read more... )

I don;t know what my deal Is But i've been feeling depressed about spring break Then i had big plans to vist Sister but now Its sort of on the back burner till lateer....oh shit i should be working..