School has been slow. I've discoverd potatos are my favorite veggie. I'm sitting in my favorite corrner spot in the cafateria. I just got done eating jo jos and french fries i feel like a lard ass just because I notice the other people in the food court were all from my yoga class and buying salads while I greased out on some delioucse deepfried

from the morning when I rise from my bed
to the evening when I lay my head in slumber
the loss of you does wreck my days
leaves me with a violent hunger
I will never be free from you
untill I escape the lion's jaw
there's no welcome in the end
there's no reason to return again

so many good memorys
now its time a special death is in order

from the morning when I rise from my bed
to the evening when I lay my head in slumber
the loss of you does wreck my days
leaves me with a violent hunger
I will never be free from you
I escape the lion's jaw
there's no welcome in the end
there's no reason to return again

so many good memorys
now its time to say good bye.

a special death is in

Do you ever wonder how long it would take for someone to find you if you killed your self? With my current life I think it would take a week and a half. That would be when the smell would seep out to the hallway of my apartment buiding. As I start the bath watching the water fill the tub with water the first thoughts in my head are not of death ( Read more... )

I love saying I'm in college now its awesome!! woot. For the first time I'm doing okay. I feel overwhelmed and lonely. yet I can do this. its only teh second day. I don;t knwo why I feel lonely i hang out with people yet inside i feel a void .I hope its just hormones I"m doing well why can't i excpt that I'm doing well.

anyways
I'm a horriable drunk

I'm also fucked up in the head

Oh well

got to go to work i guess

worst dream every....Working at Discovery and teh whole time I walking around teh store I kept finding Ice cream mainly rainbow sherbert all over the store either in a dish or just random scoops.Plus homeless people/Crazies were in the store an i kept treating them normal but they would do weird things SO To sUm It up My three worries/fears right ( Read more... )

I'm writing liek a fean their so much i want i remember last year around septmber i was just at peace with things now I'm a hormonal mess i think or maybe its the lack of human contact I've been having or just the whole having some one then not and at times it liek its been only a month yet it feel like a year and I'm liek cherise get ahold of your ( Read more... )

the future is fucked up.I finally feel good about things.

I'm confused on life right now.I didnt; get the job dued to being to slow I was crushed hurt disappointed with my self i called the one person who would listen to me beat up on my self and go on and on about how i failed yet they always reasuring me that i didn't and it just wasn't ment to be then after me not changing in beating my self up he just ( Read more... )