i need a new lj. i hate this one. this one is full of complaining and its boring. it chronicles my breakup with john, my new independence, my descent into drinking and all that bullshit. since that change has taken place, its time for a new one. i'm gonna make a new one about school anyway, so i can keep track of my mental health during the ( Read more... )

get rad. its time for school.

i am the laziest person alive. i have so much to do, but all i want to do today is hang out with zach and watch kindergarten cop and the pacifier with him and steve and di. i also have class, but i'm not doing that ( Read more... )

oh man. yip yip tonight, and beer ( Read more... )

i'm so boring. not so sad anymore though. i don't know what that was about ( Read more... )

worthless? worthless ( Read more... )

so. umm, yeah. confusing times for a confused girl. i don't want to grow up. look, theres my future, theres the real world flying at me. swooping like a fucking vulture. getting close enough for me to look into its eyes, and then its gone again, far away but still in view. if i can't make it, it will rip me to shreds. if i can do it, then i ( Read more... )

sigh. i feel dead. constantly. i'm happy, but i'm so tired. its not like life has been that hard, i don't know what's wrong with me. i'm just so achy and numb all the time. i feel good when zach is around, but weird and bad when he isn't. its like listening to the smiths has finally gotten to me ( Read more... )

hey, you fucks. i wish i was better at time management. because i'm really bad at it. like really really bad. the past few years can be guaged in to do lists. especially those with about 10% of the things crossed off. i dont do what i'm supposed to. i'm incredibly irresponsible. i fuck up everything. and now i'm an alcoholic. or not ( Read more... )

omg, war of the worlds. omg, on the border. omg, date night with boyfriend.

on top of the world