i wonder if this is easier now...

i think it is.....

and breathe.

in

out.

okay..

i dont know what to do. theres so much indecision.... ill admit it..theres times when im not with you him (i cant be so direct yet..it didnt feel right) that i dont think im in love with him anymore...
theres so many times i dont think hes in love with me anymore...

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i havent written in here for soo goddamn long because im scared.

im scared of writing what im really thinking and feeling.

because that means i have to face it.

and im scared.

..there. i said it.

Feelin' lost within myself
feelin' lost without you
standing in the rain and not knowing what to do
baby you helped me through the good times and the bad
now that your gone, I'm doing all that I can
I feel hopeless,
stranded,
lost in this world without you.

Ever since the day you took my heart away,
you left me with a memory of you.
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i want to break my promise to you...
please let me.

I don't really remember a time without the alcohol. I know there was a period when I was really little that she had it under control but that didn't last long.  Control never seemed to last long with my mother. She used to get drunk and pass out in the living room...I remember I'd come downstairs to ask what was for dinner, only to find she had ( Read more... )

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

I FEEL HAPPY

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

im so excited for a new beginning. =] <3

Lloyd Dobler: She's gone. She gave me a pen. I gave her my heart, she gave me a pen.


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cold tired worried hungry.

wishing you were here...
wanting to hug you and make it all better.

see you smile

give you tea and snuggle up under a blanket together watching a happy movie..

.....how is it possible i still dont know what to get you?

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I felt you again..

now I don't think I'll ever be able to get you out of my system...

that was amazing..

that was...

everything I can't have.