I don't trust my geejay journal. So I'll ell this one instead.
So I'm shaking like a crazy woman and it might just be that I'm cold but I dunno. I'm annoyed and I want to hit Martyn. And I think Liam might be on the verge of breasking up with me. He's been acting weird and, oh I dunno. It's just beginning to annoy me and scare me.
i keep becoming blind and seeing my past mistakes. i see a cut on someone, then ill imagine a razor tearing its way across my skin. and ill want it. but ill feel the pain. and the blood. but it wont be real. i wish it were real
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