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[blacksilentears]

Had an info meeting today at the ED clinic. It was kind of emotional for me after. I was so worried that I'd be the fattest one there. But most of the girls there were the same size as me. Except for one girl. I was sitting behind her and all I could see was her feet at first. And I thought she was an old woman because her feet were all veiny and

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[emma2804]

Hey hun!!
I know what the girl at your ED meeting meant, recovery is like snakes and ladders. You feel like you're making progress and suddenly you're back where you started.
I try to tell myself things like you do too, that losing more weight won't make me happy, it makes me more depressed. I know we'll both get there though, best of luck!
Love you loads, emma xxx

[_little_e]

heyyy, i just recently came back to livejournal (school, work, and stress have kept me busy) and i think it's awesome that you are getting help. the smarter part of my brain tells me that what you're doing is right and that's what i should be doing, but then there's that other part. know what i mean? anyway i just wanted to say good luck and i admire you for taking steps in a healthy direction. XOXOXO

[blacksilentears]

Hey hun,
I definitely know what you mean about that OTHER part. It's that ED voice in our heads. And its such a strong voice. But lately I'm learning to not pay attention to it as much. It's so hard because you don't realize just how much of your thoughts this ED controls. I mean it shows up at times when you don't even expect it. But it is getting a little bit easier to not focus on it so much. I have my good days and I definitely have my bad days... but I'm starting to have more good ones than bad ones so its encouraging. Anywyas, just remember I'm here for you and if you ever wanna talk or anything just let me know. Hang in there and take care of yourself hun! Thanks for all the support!