tonight i went out to eat with my whole family. i was very worried it was going to be awkward between my mom and my dad, but it wasn't at all. my mom even let me order a glass of wine. it was plum wine. i don't understand how my mom is so hateful sometimes and other times she acts like shes a victim. i don't understand the psycology of ( Read more... )

so i leave exactly a week from today and i'm very excited to be going back. i've been having a problem with my stomach lately where i throw up when ever i eat a big meal so now i'm on these pills they give pregnat women for morning sickness. the pills help a lot, but they're basically muscle relaxers. not that i'm complaining about that, they ( Read more... )

it's getting down to leaving and i realize i'm going to miss not having to do anything. going back means i'm going to have to work a lot and go back to school and really try to get out of this huge hole of negative money. it's nice being able to lay around until noon and then watch the cosby show for two hours, but i would much rather work and ( Read more... )

i have been so worried these past few days, it's making my whole body feel sick. my parents don't even talk now and it's so awkward. it's like they are two parts or a scale and the more i lean towards one side the lighter the other side gets. i just feel like i'm hurting everyones feelings. i'm worried about going back to boston. i'm super ( Read more... )

today, i was inocently walking to the record store down the street when a bird crapped on me. i was lucky and it only hit the top of my headphones and my jacket. both those objects were easy to wash though, but when i got to the record store i was so paranoid that there was bird shit all over me that i hid my face from the guy working there and ( Read more... )

so i'm officialy coming home a two weeks from saturday, or the third of april. my stay here has been some what productive, but very depressing all together. just eighteen more days.

things that have changed recentley:
my hair
the weather
my mom moved out
my facial hair
my over all outlook on everything

the winds are blowing fiercly.

Step 1: Open your MP3 player ( Read more... )

the hospital was alright, made a friend and met two crazy people. lisa is funny and came up with an idea to put a trash can in a car. crazy crazy crazy. she used to do back flips into pools when she was drunk at the age of ten. donna would not stop talking and she introduced herself to me three times, but she did say i was the most fashinable ( Read more... )

you spoke so clear i could hear it through walls ( Read more... )