Its been forever since I've posted but im happy my journal is still here.

men suck. or at least the men i find. They are little children and they just hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt others. stupid stupid stupid men. bah!

I am so tired. I both passionatly hate and love jacob. What the hell. STUPID STUPID STUPID MEN god. love sucks.

so whats new now. lets see, i put my trust into yet another man and guess what!? he fucking broke it. what a biiig surpise. whats new with that. he presumed to tell me what i was thinking. he made the decision by himself without telling me he was upset. so ya. once i trusted him enough to talk to him about what I was feeling, he turns around and ( Read more... )

I love you all with an endless love.

What to write. I am trying to write more and more to help release stress. So they kinda think its stress. Stress is causing my to always be nauseous. Now. picture your day being ruled by whether or not you will feel good enough to do anything. My life is hard but still so so so good. I have three wonderful ferrets who are an endless source ( Read more... )

I am so frustrated, so angry and yet so accepting of my life right now. I could use love sent my way. I love you all.

so just to update my life which I have not done in a long time ( Read more... )

So yes, I am back in OR. I feel badly that I did not get to see anybody but I do not know what was wrong with me. I got sick the last day of the cruise, and we sick for a couple days after the cruise. But i wanted to come home, i needed to be with my support group up here. Up where I have loved ones who are there for me. I love all of you so ( Read more... )

I just failed the second midterm of Ochem. I failed the first too. I dont know what is wrong with me. Ill study and study and study but when she hands it out i just dont get it. I just cant put the peices together even though i can explain the chapters to another person. I am so close to giving up. all i want to do is cry but i am too tired to ( Read more... )