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I'm staring out into that vacuum again
from the backporch of my mind,
the only thing that's alive, I'm all there is.
And I start attacking my vodka,
stab the ice with my straw.
My eyes have turned red as stoplights,
you seem ready to walk.
You know I'll call you eventually,
when I wanna talk, 'til then you're invisible.

'Cause there's this switch that gets ( Read more... )

I raise my glass to invitation.  To devilish teamwork.  To fidelity.  To being intimidating.  To being clever.  To helping out.  To fucking chivalry.  To amusing past times, to witty sayings ( Read more... )

Georgia is wonderful
I love it here.,
I feel like I can finally breathe.
My aunt is my hero, she's taught me so much.
Another aunt worries me, but I've learned quite deal from her as well.
I've never felt so calm, and peaceful, and loved.
((But there is a part of me that is anxious to be home.))

All you give is returned
And if life seems absurd, what you ( Read more... )

"... the sunset's just my lightbulb burnin' out..."

The aspect of a supervisor position is through, I'm miserable at work, and I'm slacking off entirely too much.
Lauren is moving to Keystone until September, then leaves for Pensecola.
My brother is going to end up in jail within the next few months.
I'm worried that the incident on my birthday has ( Read more... )

[[ I WAS HAPPY WHEN WE WERE HERE ]]

...the instinct of the blind insect
Who makes love to the flower bed
And dies in the first freeze.
Oh, I want to learn such simple things
No politics, no history
'Til what I want and what I need
Can finally be the same.

I've just got myself to blame
Leave everything up to fate
When there's choices I could make
When there's choices I could make.
And now my ( Read more... )

Damn
I can't believe how good it feels to smile again.

... You are so many things you will not always be."

This is change.
I'm through.
I wish I could say I'm through with being unhappy, but I know that unhappiness will always be with me.  And I'm grateful for it, because you can't appreciate day without night.
Instead, I'll say
That I'm through with stressing about my job.
I'm through with crying over ( Read more... )

...and on autopilot.
Right now, Lauren's enjoying a fake tuna melt.
I've had alot of Tilt, and beer, and Sparks.
I feel like I've lost something incredibly important, which seems silly, in a way.
On top of all that, I went to visit Marc's grave yesterday, don't know what to say about that...
I'm handling everything pretty decently, all in all, no stupid ( Read more... )