sometimes i sit alone, turn on cursed, and think of you nonstop. sometimes i see a brown-haired boy with a beard, my heart leaps, then i realize he is not you, will never be you, and i sink. sometimes i dwell too much on the car rides we used to have, the ridiculous things you used to say, your anger, your passion. there are other times i forget ( Read more... )

 will losing at least 25 pounds make my life wonderful? cause it sure feels so. 

 I bought a ticket to New York for May and I know Jordan is going to have to peel me off of the streets of the city. At this point I don't really care to be here anymore. I feel like I have nothing going for me here. I feel incredibly lonely and have felt this way since May, two years ago. I feel like I have no one to talk to. I know some of you ( Read more... )

 Nobody wants to fuck shapes. 

 Missions for 2010

1. Stop being so terrified of 2012.
2. Get my eating habits/health in check while working out with my boy Billy Blanks at least 5 times a week.
3. Successfully move to New York. 
4. Not cut my hair (especially my bangs) until I move to New York. 
5. Stop being scared of being in my 20's.
6. Get rid of at least half of my belongings.
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I recently visited my brother in jail where he asked "Are you staying out of trouble?" to which I replied "Dude, I just learned how to knit." These are my 20's.