I'm trying my hardest not to be miserable.. but it's not working. I can't stop thinking about her, as much as I would like. she called tghe last two nights but I was on the phone with another friend last night and I was at a friend's tonight so I couldn't talk to her. it's good for me to not drop everything for her because she says she doens't ( Read more... )

It's really a good thing that no one basically reads this. It helps to get my thoughts out there.. and soo I continue ( Read more... )

so I was wrong abotu the girl from last saturday night. I went to their apt this weekend and I discovered actually that she wasn't that cute and not really my style. oh well, at least I found out. and I hung out with her roommate which I was concerned abotu at first becaus eI know how she acts from my friend who used to live with her, but it ( Read more... )

so I didn't get that job in MA. although not really didn't get it, but the contract has been delayed until at least january.. so still nothing. last weekend when I found out it was frustrating and so I just tried to relax and figure it all out ( Read more... )

Life is shitty. I have to wait another 2-3 weeks before I find out about that job. At least that's not a 'no', but damnit I want an answer because I'm way too stressed out and frustrated with the whole thing ( Read more... )

once again I'm back into depression. the job interview went well when I was in MA, it was over 2 hours long and it felt comfortable. They still don't know much so I just have to try and keep in touch and hope they hire me. it's hard though because I don't know what to say when I email them ( Read more... )

oh it's been so long. the girl was here for a few days at the beginning of august and it was a really good long weekend. we had a lot of fun and not too many troubles.. except I went really poor and am still having trouble recovering.. but all worth it ( Read more... )

argh.. I'm frustrated. I've sent out at least 5 or 6 resumes in the last 2 weeks and have recieved no replies. so fuckin annoying. stupid people just don't like it when you don't live near the job you offer, even if you say "I am moving there." bastards ( Read more... )

I'm so bad at keeping up on this.. mostly because I'm on the phone every night for over an hour. so basically, the trip to the east coast was decent. we had fun. but then of course she lays this "I don't know if I love you as a friend or more". that sucked. but we haven't changed anything, it's still an open relationship, if she gets asked ( Read more... )

blah. last few days have been trying. the girl has been depressed which sucks. she's not doing well, her dad is giving her crap and is being unhelpful (maybe selfish because he doesn't want her to leave), but this makes her question herself, and then question everything from moving, to us. it's not a rgeat situation. I've done my best to try ( Read more... )