so I've been in MA for a few weeks now.. got a new job.. but that's about it. I have to save for a while to have enough money to move again into an apartment.. and plus I have no idea where I want to move to. I'm sure I'll figure it out. The job is ok.. nothing great, but it pays well. It's been pretty boring since there isn't a lot of work ( Read more... )

less than a week left and I'll be gone from LA. party on friday, should be good. have to talk to one company tomorrow, that will hopefully go well. leave saturday even though it's going to rain the whole trip which will suck ( Read more... )

I hate moving.. this time will be worse because I have to sell some of my stuff.. I hope people will want to buy it or I'll just have to chuck it which would really suck. just have to see what happens ( Read more... )

so if you don't know or if I haven't written about it.. I'm leaving Los Angeles at the end of january. it's been fun and cool, but I think it's time for me to leave. I'm quitting my decent paying job to have no health insurance (which kind of bothers me) to hope for the best in MA. If I make a mistake, whatever, I can move on, I'm still young ( Read more... )

well.. I've been trying to get out of LA since at least March... after many months of thinking, talking to people, working, living here, I've finally decided to leave. it's going to be hard because right now I don't have a job, but until i get one i can live at home and with my last 2 paychecks i'll be able to pay all of my necessary bills for ( Read more... )

still depressing same crap. still can't have her.. even helped her with how to ask out a guy. I'm way too nice. I'm sure I'll forever be cursed to be liked by girls I don't like, and always become the friend and only the friend of the girls I like. the future looks great.. really.. ya.. no. nothing else I can do. still no job potentials ( Read more... )

I'm going crazy. after my last trip to MA I once again remembered how much I love her and want her in my life forever, as more than just a friend. I just don't know how it would work right now ( Read more... )

every day I notice more and more how much I really miss her and want her. it sucks. I want her.. forever.. and until that happens I will always dream ( Read more... )

I'm trying to get her out of my mind, but it won't happen.. not even when having sex. blah.

I'm never going to be good looking enough, never smart enough, never good enough. I hate this. sometimes I think it would be nice if I never met her (since if I did meet her I would have fallen in love with her anyway).. but then again I don't know if it would have been worth it. it sucks, it's painful.. but at least I know what true love is.