i look at the world and i notice its turning... my guitar is still crying god damnit

[blarmus]

well i did it. i took the Lexapro. i read it increaced suicide rates so i think that may have been the main cause for doing so. another reason was, well, because my mom now basically told me i was injecting drugs with a baby medicine syringe. it certainly doesnt help what my doctor told me it was for. it made me a damn insomniac to the point where

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lsd blurb

[blarmus]

the little ramble about lsd made me want to post my favorite quote.

"If we could sniff or swallow something that would, for five or six hours each day, abolish our solitude as individuals, atone us with our fellows in a glowing exaltation of affection and make life in all its aspects seem not only worth living, but divinely beautiful and significant, and if this heavenly, world-transfiguring drug were of such a kind that we could wake up next morning with a clear head and an undamaged constitution-then, it seems to me, all our problems (and not merely the one small problem of discovering a novel pleasure) would be wholly solved and earth would become paradise."
-ALDOUS HUXLEY

id have loved to have mr huxley as a father.

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[blarmus]

im bored so im going to type some more

[archaeo]

SSRIs suck. I've never met an SSRI I liked.

Lexapro sucks.

[princessss]

I know that sympathy doesn't help you any, but does it matter that I care at least?? I hope so anyway. I'm glad that you post.

Re: Lexapro sucks.

[blarmus]

of course it matters, holly. you are a great friend. it just sadly cant change any of the bullshit in my life. all im saying is dont spend a rediculous amount of time thinking about how bad i may have it off and what not. it will just make 2 lives wasted instead of one cause that is sure as hell all i can think about. lol... peace out. DAMN THIS CHEMICAL YAWNING NEVER ENDS.

[blarmus]

whats up man. never saw you post on any of my shit. welcome. youre lucky as hell man. you have ativan. id kill to be scripted a benzo instead of these shit drugs. well rock and roll dude. later

[twirlingparasol]

don't even THINK about killing yourself. that is so STUPID. i cannot stand it when you talk that way, it infuriates me, so if you're going to say things like, "i'm going to take lexapro because it will increase suicidal tendencies," don't bother posting them on livejournal because i don't want to read about it.

hey now

[jawapudding]

Danny can say whatever the hell he wants to say in his journal. I don't want to hear it either, but it's good for him to get that shit off his chest.

[blarmus]

hey yo. im sorry i piss you off, but you can prevent this by slicing me off the friends list for as long as im a nut. untill then im pissed off. i post on live journal because usually when i do its either the choice of venting anger through that or through throwing up my bloody bile.

not trying to be snappy but this is my one form of communication i shouldnt have to watch what i say on.

[starmarie]

ellie is right, danny needs to say it somewhere so what better place than his own personal journal? dont read it if you dont want to hear it because the truth his, danny has problems that he cant tuck away int he back of his head for a rainy day, and if venting helps him feel better then he needs to do it. most of the crap that stresses him out isnt even his fault, its stupid people around him and their fucked up lives and situations that become his problem for no good reason...sooooooo yeah...if hes gotta get shit off his chest this is the place to do it.

[jawapudding]

Dude Danny,
I wish I could understand what's going on in that brain of yours, but that's impossible for me. 90% of the drugs you've taken I've never even SEEN. And i'm sorry that all the doctors you've seen don't understand you or listen to you. I'm serious about my dad, though. If you need something, go see him, I'll tell you when he works and let him know you're coming. Or I'll ask him myself, I just don't know how good of a messenger I'd make since I don't know the first thing about the pills you need.

mmkay, that is all. Pine cones.

[blarmus]

you got a good point with the 90% thing... thats the same with most people. that aside, i dont think my disorder is all that uncommon. its just the choice of drugs they try to give me. i need to be calmed down, not made more normal or happy along with it. i just need to calm down, my bodys chemicals just wont allow it in the mind or muscle. thats bascially it. benzo's and a few illicit drugs have been shown to cure it. xanax is out of all ive tried (yes ive tried most of em) the best at combating my illness.

i may see about going to him. i have few options left.