You cannot love selfishly for that is no love at all ( Read more... )

Back in the ham. lifeguard cert for the next few days. awsome times in prattville, muddy, but awsome.
one "cancelled relationship."
it's finished.
I've cried.
it's over.
no more.
Now get moving.

This just really really sucks. I don't know if we were just lying to ourselves the entire time or one/both of us really changed beyond recognition. I don't think he cares about me or even really like the real me all that much anymore. I know for a fact he doesn't care about us." I know I'm a really shitty boyfriend right now, but it's just not one ( Read more... )

So I'm taking some time off school to recalibrate my goals and expectations and just to take a dip in the real world for a minute. I'm broke. I'm powerless. I'm at ground zero and have no idea where to next ( Read more... )

Patient Care Tech- Fresenius Medical Care
Receptionist- Savela Solutions
Stock Associate- World Market
Team leader, Sales associate- Petco
Assistant Manager- Haagan Dazs
Sales Associate- Macy's
Package Handler- UPS
Biometrics Technician
Patient Intake Tech-NES
Customer Service Agent-Delta
Patient Care Secretary- Baptist Health System

too many decisions...

Fuck that. I'm nobody's domestic.

I want to be wild again. More importantly, free. He looked at me and saw love, and a comfortable future. All I see is me pretending to be content when I'm not.

Nothing has changed. I haven't seen a change in him, and I sure as hell haven't changed a bit. Maybe grown into more of the same, and felt a bolder stronger ( Read more... )

I feel like a worthless lump of clay and am being molded into something unrecognizeable. my mind has been washed and now ready to be reinserted. I've been looking for a place to take some form of martial arts, it has occurred to me if I was confronted with a man holding a knife, the man holding the knife would probably win. Even if I can run fast, ( Read more... )

i don't have anything to hide, why do you? 
is this all a holographic universe we've created for ourselves
just the interference patterns of a shallow truth all come together to represent something beautiful
on the surface it is
but what lies underneath it all?

that's what i'm trying to find out.

( read anything lately? )