God....There are so many things I'm sick of. First of all I'm sick of everyone else's crap, I'm tired of having to listen and deal with everyone else's stupid fucking problems, the most retarded things you can think of, fuck it I'm sick of other people. That's all I'm going to say about that because I can't even begin to think of a way to explain ( Read more... )

What to do? What to do?

So May 5th, I did something I was afraid to do, I lied to my parents and drove all the way to Atlanta to see a concert, by myself, well Drew was with me... It was by far the coolest thing I've ever done. My parents still have no idea I left the state. Come on now, how many times are you going to be able to see Kittie? It would have totally been ( Read more... )

Goddamnit all I want to do is scream, but I can't because someone could hear me.

3 Secrets:

1. I don't believe anyone when they tell me they love me.
2.I avoid looking in the mirror.
3.Sometimes I think about leaving and not telling anyone.

Lately I've been in weird moods, I don't know if its my menstrual cycle getting all out of whack, or if I'm becoming more and more like my mother. I've been worrying a lot lately. I feel like people are avoiding me. I don't know why though, I don't think I've given anyone any reason to. I'm also sad a lot. It's stupid really, but I'm worried about ( Read more... )

This week I've felt completely drained. Work is kicking my ass. My feet hurt, I bought new work shoes today, hopefully they will help. I'm looking forward to getting my paycheck on Friday, I will finally be able to buy my new drumset, and my tickets to go see Kittie. My Mom's been her usual proselytizing self, its really starting to drive me crazy ( Read more... )

Wow I'm really tired, I had to get up at 4:45 am to go to work on Monday, I'm still recovering from that. I have a blister on my left foot, it hurts really bad. I'm looking forward to getting my paycheck, I'm using it to buy myself a new drumset. My friend Drew's niece was born today!! I got to be there when she was born, I felt like part of the ( Read more... )

Today I had one of the most beautiful private moments. I was over at Drew's house and it started snowing!! It hasn't snowed in Alabama in years. After I had dropped Drew off at work and was on the interstate on the way home, I had my private moment. I was driving watching the sheets of snow fall and it was just beautiful. It was one of the first ( Read more... )

I got an email from my Dad yesterday. I sent him one last month. It made me happy. It felt so weird though. Sometimes I forget I have a father, and then when I'm reminded I'm just like whoa. I have mixed feelings about him still. Everytime I talk to him he just seems so interested in what I have to say and wants to know more, but doesn't make the ( Read more... )

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