As you can tell by the mood and the subject, I am hitting a point where I am just too fucking tired to play the word game. Some jabs were made at me today, beware the friend who smiles only to hide his fangs, and while at first I said "okay, ya wanna jab at me fine, I deserve it." But then it hit me, those who live in glass houses should not ( Read more... )

It seems that these days i am having a terrible time finding the much needed sleep I so crave. My dreams, for good or for ill, seems to rally against the periods of rest I am able to snatch from Morpheus' hands. A lingering feeling of anxiety for some reason keeps my heart beat on a high paced tempo. The times when I am able to rest for more ( Read more... )

Well, it seems that I must soon find myself a new place of living....and this is not an easy thing to ponder, especially when I haven't really had time to formulate a plan. There are options open and available to me, but not all are currently financially viable choices at the moment. Mike says I should go back to Arkansas, and a part of me agrees ( Read more... )

So here I sit, alone in my darkend room, only the light from the monitor allowing me to see the worn and beaten keys as I plod through my thoughts I now let slip into this electronic medium. I have thought a lot about them. Those that have affected my heart, and touched my soul. Despite the pain I may have caused I can only hope that somewhere, ( Read more... )

I had a convo today that brought up many memories, and the mistakes I may have made, or just thought I did. The list is long, and too numerous to list, so I will not endeavor to do so as I am tired. But the thought I felt like expressing through written word is simply this; our mistakes, our memories, and our actions we do as a result of those ( Read more... )

Behold a pale horse ( Read more... )

I find myself hungry these days, and not for food. There is a primal scream in my head, and I know what it means. The thrill of the hunt, the rush of the...dare I say kill. The feeding of, as someone once told me I did quite often, emotion. The sense and knowledge that a fragile life is near. I am hungry. I need to be sated. But the options ( Read more... )

Well, let's see. The last couple of days have gone in an interesting fashion. I found myself in a fit of pissed off-ness at a driver (no big surprise there), found out I have lost 50lbs, started on plans for getting a higher end computer, and started basic plans for my vacation. Now Vacation won't happen untill the fall, possibly early winter, ( Read more... )

Can't sleep and words have come ( Read more... )

I don't know why, I don't know if I want to know, but it seems that we all must pay the price. What's the price you say? Well I suppose for all of us it seems that it would be a different thing at different times, but who cares about you, this is my journal, so I will rant about my price most recently paid. You see I have had to pay the price ( Read more... )