In the dream you sat with your back to me, up slightly higher, like on a cloudy wall. You looked over your shoulder at me, out of the corner of your eyes, a look I've come to associate with you. In your hands were a bunch of pages, songs, music. I knew you had been writing ( Read more... )

You might possibly be going through a rough patch when you watch "The Rose" three times in a row, downing half a bottle of Jack Daniels shot by shot, while crying and yelling "yeah, the blues! because I'm a woman!" at the screen ( Read more... )

I feel like I should give this place a chance again. It does seem to be my current best hope of finding new interests and the people who like them ( Read more... )

Out in the wastelands of the 2-to-11 anonymity surround by a vast metropolitan area, it's easy for the taste to drain out of life and leave behind only bitterness ( Read more... )

Saturday morning began with Panic. Anguish. A fair amount of Pain ( Read more... )

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I had a dream last night about a global infiltration of giant sunflowers. They were normal width stalks, but they were incredibly tall and strong. It was overwhelming to walk among the stalks, packed close together, like endless fat bamboo, as tall as redwoods ( Read more... )

So... the grime is gone. The windows are spotless. The bathroom sparkles. Cabinets are clean. Carpet vacuumed and deodorized.

My mother came by and walked through the apartment with me and confirmed what I saw: it's going to be ok. Really.

Today was the day I got the keys to the new apartment. I had hired a cleaning service to rid the place of dust, crumbs and other ick and grime before I have the movers move my heavy boxes of books and the other stuff in on Sunday ( Read more... )

As I have gotten older my dread of money has increased. When I was a young adult I didn't mind it so much, maybe because I knew Mommy and Daddy would be there for me if things got really bad ( Read more... )