Last night I got arrested for the first time. I am not proud of this in any capacity. I'm extremely embarrassed actually. Because I was arrested for  DUI. So I am that guy. The one who got caught. Doing something so stupid and embarrassing. I deleted my facebook profile and several other profiles I had because this is so embarrassing that I would ( Read more... )

Life has been giving me a lot of new experiences lately and I think I've been rising to the challenges pretty well. But I still don't know what I'm doing a lot of the times and that feeling leaves me very uncomfortable ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here, going through life lessons faster than I would like. But since we have no control over when and what we are supposed to be learning in life, all I can do is keep moving forward. As best as I can ( Read more... )

Dear Momma,

I'm writing you a letter because I never write letters. To anyone. And I think that it would make you feel special to recieve a letter from me. But before you get that warm fuzzy feeling, I think I should give you a heads up as to what this letter is about. I like to write, but not often. I have to be in a very specific state in order to ( Read more... )

I can't relinquish control. I have to be in conrtol to feel comfortable. But I realize it is unhealthy because there are a lot of things that I should let go of but can't. Not being able to surmise the outcome is really frightening to me, but It wo uld make things so much easier if I could mentally let go of the things that are keeping me, rather ( Read more... )

I saw Katie Hodgson last night. It was quite nice because she's still hilarious and just like she used to be. She's also still very beautiful, too. I couldn't bring myself to tell her I was gay because Christy told me that she had it really bad for me in High School... and I just feel like a jer even though I know there's no blame to pass around ( Read more... )

Everything feels better when you have a fresh new hair cut. I found a barber very close to home. It's kind of expensive, ie - not free, but the guy is very nice and quite skilled. He also trusted me, after only just meeting me, to go to the bank and come back with cash for my hair cut. I think that speaks volumes about this guy. That's the kind of ( Read more... )

I got rid of my facebook today. It's actually the second time I've done this. I had to set up a YMCA reunion so that forced me to get it back again. But this time, I'm going to try going without it for a week. It feels like Facebook is a ball and chain attached around my leg and I don't much care for that feeling. I've become emotionally invested ( Read more... )

I've been thinking and I feel like I need to start seeing a therapist again. It's strange, but I really enjoyed having someone to talk to. I know that people are supposed to have a support system and what not, but I have an aversion to talking about myself, especially my problems, with other people. Deep down, I'm always afraid that I'm talking ( Read more... )

So today didn't go nearly as well as I had hoped it would. I made spaghetti for lunch, but didn't have enought spaghetti so I used penne pasta too and that didn't turn out as well as I'd thought it would ( Read more... )