im just writing to say thankyou kelly for the mix tape and the drawing you made for me, it made me smile to know someone is thinking of me.you have always been there trying to catch my fall when everything falls apart and after everything still havn't given up on me. your a sweet person and i love you <3

alright well i think this is going to be my last entry.. i no longer feel the need to share my thoughts or feelings on a computer for people i hardly see anymore or people i hardly ever knew in the first place.. to the people i love and care about ill talk to you soon i hope. to the rest of you ta ta <3 ryan

tonight felt like a dream i wish everynight could end this way..

today is a very special day everyonee ! its gillian marie's birthdayy. happy birthday gilly i hope you are smiling alot today <3333

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i havn't really done to much lately. me , jeff, matt , mikey and jenny went sledding the other day which was amazing , then a brutal game of king of the mountain on the big hhill and jeff kept kicking me down deeper into the snow. hopefully jeff comes down again soon to hangout i miss him.
happy birthday to jenny !!!! <3

i wish jeff lived closer so i could see him more. i feel really distant from the people i love and care about right now. everyday is starting to feel the same. everyday bleeds right into the next and i can't even keep track anymore. im tired of working and sleeping and wondering if i might be missed as much as im missing.

naked and bathing the semen away. uncomfortable and left behind. the saliva shines a silver as we make love. pulse catches in continuous beating. sore hands shake and bare feet feel froze. the beauty in the way the blue screen captures everything. the way it keeps on falling out of windows and into walls. triangles growing your wrists to keep you ( Read more... )

Lips seal into kisses of deception pouring glass down throats of unconditional love infected with untrustworthy schemes outlined in shadows lips seal into kisses of whispers warn me through violent ties I've worn myself down through years spent reminiscing over dead melodies and solely dreaming impossibilities every crash of every wave sends me ( Read more... )