I always have these entries planned in my head the night before I write them, about 1000 words, then I end up writing about 30 ( Read more... )

I want someone (a girl plz) to hold me close and never let go, how weird is that!

I feel so lonely all the time.

Doctors want me to go back into hospital on antidepressants, AS IF 6 FUCKING MONTHS AND 3 DIFFERENT ANTI DEPRESSANTS WORKED.

If they make me go (I'm still under 16) I'll run away :)

frankie (from hospital) is getting much better. I don't know why this made me cry, but it has all night.

She's moved onto food, after a year of not eating. It's amazing, I'm so happy for her

I keep on dreaming of getting laid, it's fun.

The party was so fun :| Heres a list of what I did. Probably not in order ( Read more... )

The other day I thought fuck it, I may as well ask this girl (natalie, who I like alot) out, it turned out she would have said yes, but about 2 hours before her friend asked her out. Either that or she came up with a lame excuse to say no, lawl ( Read more... )

Well I'm getting discharged from hospital after 5 months next week. Something along the lines of "We can't do anything to help you." and "The pain won't get better, only worse, your coping mechanisms have to get better." and, "if you can't do this program, there's nothing else we can do for you ( Read more... )

No I am not committing suicide :P

I've decided to discharge myself from hospital, I don't feel there helping me, which leaves me pretty much screwed with my life. Lawl. Oh well, it could be worse. Well not really, but saying that makes me feel better.

The doctors haven't a clue.

The NHS sucks :)

I'll probably be at home more now.

I've gotten worse. Throwing up all my food. Have a nasal gastric tube in, it hurts. Life pretty much sucks right now ( Read more... )