I'm trying not to get to excited about my accomplishments but I do feel like I've done well so far because I've been able to fight the temptation to eat my pain away and in my last entry I can tell you all I wanted to do was get out my rasor blade and some taco bell but I resisted both urges... I can't say that I'm completely happy though we are ( Read more... )

I'm truly frustrated at the fact that I have to take my life so incredibly seriously while everyone around me seems to be just having a blast! I have to admit that my roommate is the main cause of this frustration for the primary reason that she always has someone to fall back on if she gets into trouble and I on the other hand do not...I have ( Read more... )

I just don't understand how so many of my friends could be so commited right now...It's terribly depressing to be hearing about all of these weddings and pregnancys. It makes me wonder if I'm going to be one of those women who never finds that certain someone, who wastes her whole life turning people away. I know when I am dating someone that I ( Read more... )

Well as of right now I'm fine complacent in my job and hoping for things to fall into place...I do feel alittle out of place every now and again but I seem to get over it fairly quickly...I feel very nostalgic lately and I think that definitly shows by my ipod...I seem to have gotten ahold of every song I wailed for my 95 ford escort in my high ( Read more... )

I'm feeling much better today I think I get into a funk sometimes and over react lol I always realize this afterwards...but I got my new couch delivered today! yay! I also got it delivered by a cute guy I've been looking at lately...he seems sweet but not sure if he's interested I'm going to be alittle stalker and ask my brother about him. jeez ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of getting my hopes up and then getting them just cut down. I don't know why I expect anything from anyone...I need to stop but it kills me inside when I give so much and then don't get shit in return. I think I'm alittle emotional right now but no ones around as usual. All those friends who tell me to call them when I'm upset I know ( Read more... )

I seem to be in a more reflective mood I find myself just watching people, their reactions, emotions, and resonings...It definitly doesn't help me teach class but it's just been distracting... I feel like I'm on the brink of becoming a person I wouldn't mind being but I'm still clinging to the past ( Read more... )

So it has been awhile but I figured I would let anyone who reads this know that I finally got out of the rents house and am living with a roommate! It's great so much less stressful and I finally feel like an adult by being on my own. Not that my dad doesn't interfere as much as he can but hey what can I do...anyways I'm in valdosta living my life ( Read more... )

Well we finally moved in and things were going great till I let hormones take over and dated a younger guy....worst mistake ever!

I miss my okc friends terribly...I didn't think it was going to effect me as much as it is...I guess I messed up again which isn't surprising I felt stupid moving from tampa than from valdosta and now from okc. I guess I thought I would have more of a reception comming back but Nichole was awesome even though she's moving at the end of this month ( Read more... )