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no surprise....
... ugh. she was only here because her girlfriend was here, and she's been so sad lately because her gf cheated on her, and now they are broken up, and now she is moving home... and there goes every chance I ever had ( Read more... ) -
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so i made it through last night, and all day today. I'm not really positive how. i'm scared and confused. I don't know if I should stay here, or if I should run. If I ran, I don't have any clue where I would go ( Read more... ) -
Goodbyes are hard to Pre-meditate...
I no longer know what is going to happen from day to day. I haven't for a while. I don't know what to expect or how things will end, but I don't think it is going to take much longer... I expect that whether he does it or not I should be dead before sunrise ( Read more... ) -
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I'm going to die tonight. and i'm not sure if it is going to be my fault or his... -
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I can't believe that it came to this. I can't believe that someone could do this to me again, or better yet that I could let it happen to myself again. It's been so long since I've had to feel this kind of pain and rejection...
And I'm laying here with you right there next to me, but you are so many miles away... And I'm realizing that this is it ( Read more... ) -
Summer??
Sometimes i just don't know what i'm supposed to be doing ( Read more... ) -
A little bit about WHO I AM:
I'm a mutt. Irish, Italian, Polish, Native American, and whatever else you can think of. Growing up my dad was in the military, so i've lived here and there all over the country. I claim Ohio as my home. it's the place i love more than any other place i've ever been, and it's the place i feel at home. eventually, i would love to move back, but for ( Read more... ) -
so i guess it's true that i need some help...
so i have a problem. i realize this. i recognize it. i am uncertain of what i should do to try to "get better." Ryan told me last night that i needed to get help. i think his exact words were something like, "therapy wouldn't hurt you, and you definately need to be on some kind of medication." He even told me that if I refuse to see a doctor and ( Read more... ) -
who the hell am i??
so it's been a long time, and i have changed so much that even i am not entirely sure who i am anymore... or rather who i was ( Read more... ) -
They call it change.... I call it Liberation
I hate that it has come to this, but it has….
This is my declaration. This decree shall be in affect henceforth:
1. From this day forth I will NOT… I repeat NOT be walked all over.
If you and I are friends, and you have in the past, plan to in the future, or feel that you could call me at 3am to talk/cry, I expect the same in return. I have ( Read more... )