So here's whats going down currently. I'm going to school again, dropped my college algebra class because it was ridiculous ,the teacher didn't teach us enough material to get us through the work, and then I found out I don't need it to get my AA. So now I'm just taking German 2, basic drawing and yoga. So this will give me time to get a part time ( Read more... )

By the way, I never write in here on my good days, which have become much more increasing. Life is fairly good, and I've come to see the beauty in it which had become lost for such a long time. In general now, I am happy.

I've got all these guys that want to be with me, but the only guy I want to be with doesn't want to be there with me.

I guess I'm just going to be here for myself. I want girlfriends:(

On and off on and off. I'm tired of being so up and then so down. Maybe I should just erase it all and start over. I wish.

I'm stablizing.
I sure miss who I used to be.

So my parents and Mikey left today. I'm here alone. Boy, here we go. I'm already all weepy. I don't know why I'm such a wreck. I can see things from a normal point of view, but I can't feel them. Not seeing a boyfriend for a month isn't a big deal. I should be able to concentrate on getting my school work done. But its not like that. I just want to ( Read more... )

I've come to realize that I am the smelly kid in class.

So I'm finally going to a therapist. I've been needing it for years.. and years. I'm discovering some things about myself, and its nice. But I still feel pretty shitty. My therpist says I might have Dissociative Identity Disorder(Multiple Personality Disoder. It makes sense... almost. When she asked me the questions leading up to whether I might ( Read more... )

Am I just being completely overprotective? Am I just being a sister who thinks no one is good enough for her big brother? Am I over reacting to a silly myspace bulletin I saw? She said they are hoping to get married by AUGUST. That's not so far away. And they want to get a HOUSE together. FUCK THAT. When I met her she seemed pretty low life and ( Read more... )

Kill kill ( Read more... )

I've started school. Its pretty crazy. Every class has online bullshit attatched to it, which I really don't like, but I guess I'll have to get used to it. Ahhh I miss the simplicity of Lassen college. But I guess its going okay. English 1b seems like its going to be a bitch, I can't wait to get damn English classes done and over with. I'm really ( Read more... )