epiphany

[bleedsdaylight]

So I’m sitting in a hotel room in Portland, Oregon, somewhere I didn’t know I’d be a week ago. I was supposed to be at Memorial University in St. John’s Newfoundland, doing the theme presentation for a youth event. Unfortunately the event got cancelled, and I was reminded that this event, Come to the Feast, was happening in Portland, and I had an

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[npdxbear]

I can completely relate to what you have written, having been then a couple of times in the past. I wish now that I wasn't leaving for LA after lunch, I would love to meet you and give you a great big hug. I am back on Monday night, so I fear that I won't have a chance to meet you. If you get a chance, call me. email me at npdxbear@yahoo.com, and I'll end you my phone numbers.

Even though we haven't met, I can't help but feel that you are a special person and that you have a great future ahead of you.

[bleedsdaylight]

You know, I'm really sorry I didn't make the time to contact you in advance, this trip was such a last-minute thinig, that my brain just focused on getting here... I hope we get another chance sometime.

And thanks for the comments!

[emramesha]

Like you said, you've identified what the problems are. Now you can start to work on them and things will be better in time. Good luck and just know you have support from afar, if that helps at all.

[bleedsdaylight]

The support means a world of good to me... Thanks for it!

[sweetjimmyto]

I see you are grappling. I'm a grappler, too. It's sometimes good to grapple. But have no fear of falling ... you have a great support system and so many great friends to help you through times of uncertainty. I only wish I was a better friend to you.

You're a strong and smart man. I know you'll come out the other side of this shining like a new dime. Gage? Well -- the lesson there is obvious: never fall for a guy whose first name sounds like a character from a soap opera. Ask my first wife Alexis ...

Your condominium is an excellent thing and you should be very proud. Do yourself a favour: watch anything and everything that Sarah Richardson does. She's really quite amazing. At least we really like her

[bleedsdaylight]

yeah, I miss you too... of course...

you were my first Toronto friend... first lots of things...

we could write a book about our friendship... but no one would read it. just us.

Looking forward to a dip sometime soon.

[dustin085]

Hey honey! Just want you to know thatI am totally here for you! I miss you so much! I can't wait to have a heart to heart with you next time we get together:)

[bleedsdaylight]

Yes, this has been a long time coming! But July is just around the corner, so hang in there!

[strongaxe]

I'm sorry to hear that you're having to go through this.

Yes, it sounds like mid-life crisis time. My own experience with that is "everything you know is wrong" - that hit me 5 years ago when I decided to come out, and I'm still not fully recovered from it. You end up having to re-examine every single thing that's important in your life, and decide what is true, what isn't, what is relevant, what isn't, what to keep, and what to discard and remake.

But to stay sane it's important to find a good anchor - core beliefs, strong bonds to family and good friends, etc. - that can help you through the rough parts.

Hugs and good luck.
(If you ever want to chat I'm on bear411 and bearwww)

[bleedsdaylight]

Thanks a lot, man, it's reassuring to have so much strong support from so many.

Sometimes it's nice to just see myself the way others see me... it's not that I don't see myself like that on my own... I do, but I guess I just forget...