i understand parents that work hard at traumatizing their children. that way, they will never miss a thing about their lives before they move out of the home.

i miss you. you were always better than myspace and facebook and all the things i left you for. i would read about my friend's thoughts and troubles through you. now i get a quick blurb, like a thought bubble over someones head, and thats supposed to reveal something about them. i've been too honest through you, and i thank you giving me that ( Read more... )

just to keep a proper timeline of events i will write in here. may was the last time i had written. everything has fallen apart since then. internally, not externally. which matters more?

just didn't want to leave writing here on a bad note. just know i am okay, i may feel as complete as i ever have in my entire life (which sometimes scares me because either a fall or death must be around the bend) anyhow, things are good. don't worry about me for now.

i came to place some flowers on your grave.

i'm still here

where?
where?
where?
where?

there.....

i heard all these lines before. been in these crowds before. been on these drugs before. been into these girls. been in and out of these songs.

serial killers are interesting me more than the common folk.

something terrible is happening inside of me.

i'm sorry.

hide. hydra. snake bite mine. rattling. rattle snake.

d e m on

"its all happening"

"Passion has little to do with euphoria and everything to do with patience. It is not about feeling good. It is about endurance. Like patience, passion comes from the same Latin root: pati. It does not mean to flow with exuberance. It means to suffer ( Read more... )

though i thought it was just another bit of useless information when i first heard about it, like most traumatic news, it planted and grew into something bigger as the days went on ( Read more... )

the worst immediate change during a break up is the affect sappy songs have on me. songs i usually pay no attention to, tune out, ignore, now seem amplified and directed only at me. its only in public places...... a walgreens, a publix, bryan adams or rod stewart comes on and i'm fighting back tears ( Read more... )