i feel whole again. drinking often, thinking often, dreaming often. wondering/wandering ( Read more... )

good night.

friends.
drinking.
friends.
aerosmith.
cougar.
trap.

goodnight.

i just woke from a pretty genuine nightmare. i was in a home, it did not look like any home i've lived in, and i was standing on a balance beam, or a tightrope above a bed on the second story of the house. my father was in the bed with a very young lady. they were kissing, and i knew she wasn't my mother, and that he was having an affair, but he ( Read more... )

i miss being social. sort of. i certainly miss friends ( Read more... )

things start moving too fast and i get scared i'm forgetting important things. mainly what makes one intricate. passions, frustrations, secrets, goals, tastes. i am too dizzy to explain thoroughly, so i will just give a list of ingredients that one could choose to mix in a cauldron ( Read more... )

"I like my neighborhood I like my gun ( Read more... )

"This is the way the world ends ( Read more... )

i am nothing like i remember ( Read more... )

i want to tell my parents that i want to amount to nothing. i want to be honest with them for once. i'm never dishonest with them, but i rarely tell the truth. i think i'm like that with most people. i don't ever lie, but i never tell a person everything. but thats because i don't believe in anything. i know my mind changes quick, and i feel ( Read more... )

"I'm just gonna accept my loneliness, and I'm gonna go to an even darker place of nothingness, from an even farther more extreme nothingness on my own ( Read more... )