its almost sad how easily a drug can replace certain people in your life.

some of jesse and i's conversations really get me thinking..

i give up. there are no second chances. he lost his.

how should i take this confusion?

what if? what if not?

i can't even recognize myself anymore. its hard to figure out who i am from who i once was. are drugs such a huge part of my life that i can't be me without them? at least there in my life, not always fucked up. its the only way i have been able to deal with my life lately. escaping is the one way i get through it all. theres no one here to be "my ( Read more... )

Its decided...I'm gonna party in Tijuana this summer if it kills me..

soo sick...it hurts.

I feel like a weight has been lifted. Rylan doesn't love me, he doesn't care, and he is only holding me back by being a selfish asshole lately. Maybe someday he will grow up and realize what he has lost, but I somehow doubt that. He decided to not be a part of my life for no reason. I was always there for him no matter what. He couldn't do the same ( Read more... )

i have become the walking dead today..ahh

they say you can never go back, i want to prove them wrong..

..and i will.

I don't want your pity and I don't need your sympathy. I will take no handouts. Life sucks sometimes, that's all there is to it. If you need me to be there for you, I will, but I can't take every person that I talk to on the street asking me these questions. I have no answers for you. My friends are enough support for me on this. I love them so ( Read more... )