i havnt written in my journals for so long it almost feels like a sin to do so now ( Read more... )

sometimes i just get sad for no reason ( Read more... )

my foot just cramped.
im not wearin all black today.
must be the lack of sleep.
goddmn 5am mornings!!
if she does early overtime again, i will demand compensation!
=P

so its fathers day.
and i dont have one.
but i have father figures
and a grandad
and then theres teh biological with whom ive been speaking
the dilemma;
i have no inclination to send a "happy father's day message"
but i have a feeling there will be unspoken dissappointment if i dont.
hmmm. what to do? what to do?

as i hung up i realised i had noone else to call
noone.
so im sitting here trying not to cry
with mum in despair
cause there is nothing anyone can do.

my cold sore is hurting me *pouts ( Read more... )

its time.
i need a hot water bottle.
my period pain is not funny anymore!

i am so fucking stupid!!!!

we need to walk away.
why wont you let me?
we know you'd be happier that way.

i feel sick.
that strange kind of adrenalin you get right before or during confrontation when you know you're going to hurt.
the shakes.
rapid heart beat.
inability to sit still.
shallow breathing.
all due to the knowledge of inevitability.