I hate myself for being a fucking failure. Yay. I'll probably see some of you in school next year unless I can pull off a miracle.. don't hold out hope. I hate that I do this everytime.. I hate myself so much. I swear.. if I didn't have him, I would feel so utterly helpless right now. He's the only thing keeping me in one Jennifer-ish shaped

god damnit I miss him so badly. I feel so fucking alone, I hate it. Is it sad that I'm waiting for his call? Argh... I promised him I wouldn't be sad, and I won't be.. but I can't express enough how hard it is not to be. I just hate not being able to see him... :(

Never, and I mean NEVER have I been this happy. I have never felt this loved in my life. He makes me feel like a beautiful woman, not some plain and stupid girl. I feel like I could, dance, cry, sing, and laugh all at the same time. I can't remember the last time I wanted to cry because I was happy ( Read more... )

4-27-06
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I've never liked the word "crush". I mean like what are you doing? I mean, are you crushing the person with your feelings? Or is your soul being crushed because the love is unrequited?

....crushed into the dirt by unhappiness and one-sided love. In the ground this dark plant will fester, fueled by your tears and what little ( Read more... )

I seriously feel like I can do anything I wanted to right now. He makes me feel so amazing. I love him to death, no joke. I am the happiest I have ever been, in fact, I didn't know someone could ever be this happy. He makes life perfect :)

http://online.dynamic-photography.com/SC/index.cfm?fuseaction=dspImg&iCnt=66&tpg=2&CFID=1726&CFTOKEN=B6DB306F-13CE-54AB-439314C7A6F37611&rand= ( Read more... )

I love him. And I couldn't be happier.

:)

So today was interesting. It's 4/20 (for a few more minutes anyways), but I didn't smoke. Oh well lol, it's not really a big deal to me anymore ( Read more... )

Without You - Rent ( Read more... )

I have never.. and I mean never, been as happy as I am with him. Hell, if hearing his voice alone can make me smile like that.. then it's got to mean something right? <3

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Well, I'm off to go get shit faced and forget my name for a while. Love you all :)