I'm still thinking of I. a lot. It remains confusing ( Read more... )

Yesterday my mom told me something. She had been walking through the fields, and came to a field that had cows and calves grazing on it. She saw a calf and its mother, and the calv was very dirty. Apparently it had tried to suck at its mother's udder while standing beneath its mother's ass. The inevitable happened, the mother shit on its calf. The ( Read more... )

Today I saw my face reflected in the windowglass of the boat, and I was dismayed at how fat it has become. So I've decided to go back at trying to loose weight. Just writing it down to record the decision.

Today we went by car to the Kriebstein Talsperre, a big reservoir sea about an hour away from where we live. It was wonderful ... really wonderful. I have some real good memories about me and my parents going for vacation there. And today when we went on a boat trip in the reservoir, I got to be alone for a while in a small quiet corner of the boat ( Read more... )

10.8.2009 ( Read more... )

My sister and my niece are visiting us for a few days, until the day after tomorrow. It's nice to have them around again. They always bring more life to us ( Read more... )

I hope this journal will be a little success. I will see whether I can still get a better life than I have now.

I just noticed that I am free. I have so much free time. Nobody demands anything from me.

I feel like I must justify this freedom a little. Do something with it.