ok, so what i thought was rock bottom turned out not to be, or I have hit it and am now digging it deeper. My grandmother passed away last evening, i was wondering why my mother was calling me so early. and my mother is thinking of ending her 15 year marriage, hey , who said "it can't get any worse, right?" fuck them ( Read more... )

 i do not regret anything, i'm happy that i had jims love for these 3 and a half years, i was just wishing for forever.  we had so many good times and there was so much love, and there still is.  This is tearing me apart.  i don't understand.  i don't understand any of this!! i want to scream and throw things and i just want to hurt, and it seems ( Read more... )

 
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 its friday and i have nothing to do!  i guess i could wrap xmas presents!  i just woke up and i need to stop sleeping on that damn air mattress bc it makes me hurt whenever i wake up! my right shoulder is so stiff!!  britty just went to bed at 6AM when i woke up for some water and she will probably be asleep for awhile! i should run out and get ( Read more... )

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bored, i'm so sad right now, it hurts so much.  I have no idea what is going on inside his head and i don't think anyone does really.  We built so much together and for him to walk away would be crazy! i'm so scared that he won't want me when he gets better!  i'm so scared! i love him more than anything!  I just want him to get better and come back ( Read more... )

too much has happened since i posted last and i don't think i would ever have enough time to write it! but i thought that maybe i could start using this again.......since it has been 2 years since i posted anything! 

still not moved!!

I laid my head on your shoulder last night ( Read more... )

1. Do you still know/talk to the person you lost your virginity to ( Read more... )